Enough dark to see the stars

Dear friends that’s long time I don't have been writing here, I am happy to put finally that new blog out . I am deeply thankful for my masters Karmapa Trinley Taye Dorje and Garchen Rinpoche for there kindness and powerful teaching they gave me.


When hardship make you stronger to love other and help them, in that way I don't speak only about dharma that can be applied to all areas of your life.


We see hardship as a bad things sometimes can bad experience that true that bad experience and in the middle of that usually stay something we don't see yet can be anything.


For me hardship in my own experience have help me to go forward in what told me Garchen Rinpoche be totally compassionate and loving by his life experience have truly inspire me to become like that no matter what.


We can learned, we can bring sometimes out of the blue, we are on such place and there's that annoying guy who speak with lot of F words and we got that two solution pop up into our head punch him or let's talk to that guy because maybe he got a challenge to in his life.


Like Eric Thomas say, “if we want succeed we have to man up” see on that way that simply means take charge of our life, I knew many dharma practitioner saying this is samsara or that is samsara, one of my question to Garchen Rinpoche was that when he was in Edinburgh and strangely he told me that, “Relationship best way to practice the 6 paramitas, Work best way to practice patience and the list like that was long” so yes I know a Dharma temple is cosy and we can find excuses to not take charge of our life I agree with that and the question at the end do we really live our life ?


We like to live in that state of mind of scarcity it's protective to be what we know and the unknown can be scary sometimes. I agree and respect, what if we open the door a little bit and start to see the light out there. We like keeping rocks in our pocket we forget sometimes the diamond isn't that far from us.


Following that now hardship become blessing, in every experience we can learn if you poison yourself ones you will be careful next times. Also if we drive badly and get cut we learned to drive carefully in that we have also to learn to get attached to our past experience, every person we met is different if one have make you suffer don't mean that second person will do the same.



For dharma practitioner one things Garchen Rinpoche learn me was to get out of the comfort zone and that work not just for dharma I mean that work for everything.

Wake up

So this morning I was thinking about a new blog . I was on facebook when I see horrify how some buddhist think about Islam. Garchen Rinpoche say that the bigger samaya is love and lost it is lose dharma.

So when I see some Dharma Brothers and Sisters say I HATE ISLAM that give me some worry because they lost totally there samaya and also lost the path.


Be clear that when we look to history Holy and War have been to much friendly but put holy and war together that pure wrong view.


Whatever we label our-self Christian, Jew, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu if we don't work our path in peace maybe we are in the wrong way.


Sincerely I have spend long time with Garchen rinpoche in November and his teaching base in true love are real. We forget how we can jump so easily to hate and destroy not just our samaya but ourself and others .


This don't excuse Taliban in Afghanistan but that also don't excuse Christian who are extremist or Buddhist or Hindu sorry to harsh but whatever your label is if you follow the extreme way like do a crusader or Taliban or whatever you are not in the way you looking for no more than power.


There's no excuse on that doing wrong is doing wrong and whatever you call yourself if on one point you pray compassion and on the other you pray hate Islam ask yourself that do I doing right ?



Cause and effect never fail hate will bring more hate no mater what we call ourself. Life purpose is to find enlightenment in our time we have also to find peace with ourself and others.

Live for love

Army of love defeat all hatred




Tonight I was first wanted to write about the decision I have take what this have put me a bit in the 8 miles.
With bag of cloth and all shrine stock in my car, but since I enter the promissory room and I have to deal with lot of things.


So tonight I was cruelly starving and my land lord had say some wise word like time for you to go forward in life you got nice projects work toward this.


Tonight I was outside decide to break all habit I have been first to one pub I use to go and strangely the music Depeche Mode was on and my first taught was “ironic”.
Because my ex had cheat on me for going with a guy fan of Depeche mode, so I have decide to move out this not feeling friendly in that pub I moved.


And as I was passing by this other pub since I'm here I have never put a feet inside, I have start to say to myself yeah let's try anyway.
I enter and first discover a nice group live playing was really great, second even if they was not a lot of people was really good mood.
After that I have decide to have a walk and I have put my music on, I know right now my budget is really short, so I cannot do lot of things my next bursary will be on the 17 so I have deal with what I have.


Putting the music on I was praying and this taught come to my mind like bullet, for what do you live and I start to listen that music I love at the moment give me lot of inspiration and at one point on this music the singer say I want to live for love.
And strangely that time this have touch me deep, I had always live for love, love to give to another, love for all beings, love to let go my ex partner on her path, love was my answers and tonight all personal teaching of Garchen rinpoche start to make even more sense.


We can say we live for our family and so on that the top of the iceberg at the end we all live for love, even or presence here right now is base on love from our parents, some people go to war for protection other by love, some other destroy each others because they miss love.


Love is the answer of all our questions, but that love is far deep from inside out, that love take all beings without judgement and make them live.

When we ask ourself why we live like this or like that, that for love no more no less this love we must find in deep inside us that one who had no wall that one who not judge, whatever we call it, God, Krishna, Buddha, Shiva whatever that is still love.

2014

I like first to thanks all of you to carry following my adventure in that blog, also I like send my wish for those who are in suffering and may 2014 give them something new.


This blog idea have been coming to when I was thinking to make the Dharma more accessible, this year was both blessing and curse, blessing because I have been getting more closer of my dharma masters than ever, curse because sadly I discover that you never know someone.


But now this a new year and new start, I believe in opportunities and we have to jump on it when one come to you.


Tonight I have a quite new year and I feel that new year will bring good challenge and good things back in return.


For the new year I will emphasis more in dharma in daily life. Garchen Rinpoche say dharma is love when you lose love you lose dharma.


I send a wish also for those who have no access to dharma or worst get tyrannise because they practice dharma.


Dharma mean a lot to me, I have to be honest in some deep moment only the dharma was there. Now year will come in couple of hours on my part I have put to the grave all what was the past 2013 and all that go with it.


Now this blog got also a public page on facebook so don't forget to like !!!



I wish you to all of you to always have a great love and carry on dharma.

Ashes to rebirth

Today on that 23^th December I can say that my total rebirth, the multiplication of Dharma and Nlp, and all the helps from my spiritual guides have make my old self die for real and new self is born.


But today I won't speak to much about me, tomorrow that the birthday of mother, sadly this Christmas I won't be able to see her.
So I have decide to meditate and visit wood and walk around holyrood tomorrow, tonight I like speak of real faith.


When you face the heavier breakdown in your life and friends, family just disappear that this moment you can see if your faith is real or not, because on that moment that here just now if you are faithful to your path you will succeed no matter what's happened to you.


On first stage I have to say that Christian band with great music and message have lift me up and also the great Vajra songs of Milarepa sing by Garchen rinpoche that both together was turning non stop on my MP3 and in my head when I was feeling deep down to hell.


In that faith you can find everything you need whatever you call that : Buddhas, God, Allah, Guru, Krishna yeah if you like all they always be there for you, love I truly feel is more power than all other selfish love, now I will be able to give to my future partner a powerful love without measure it. Unconditional love was the first advice gave me Dorzin Rinpoche and later on Lama Tubten Nima have also explain me how to feel it and to give it and Garchen Rinpoche was the pure example to follow on that.


Yeah this lesson proof me also that from ground zero you can become someone, today I have start loads of project and “don't look how I gonna to succeed I carry on day after day putting a stone everyday with faith without think I need this or that” you want to succeed in life ? Stop to ask yourself and just do it.


Society slam us by the idea be like this or be like that do this do that, find this to pay that OK wait a minute when do we live here ?


Succeed and fulfilled life is important, for that reason we must never give up our dream for nothing and no one.

Garchen Rinpoche was true only unconditional love save you, it's easy to fall into the 8 dharma mondain but to have real faith, the real dharma practitioners are rare like start into the light .

Die Hard

Another bomb I drop before Christmas time, time to speak about this !


Few month ago I was dyeing for love for someone who only was thinking to see other mens and who were pointing fault at me, preaching the dharma to me as I was always wrong.


Sadly for her my faith on the buddhas was so strong that each time she was in town hanging around with someone that have make that I have always, cross her road by one way, the buddha have help me to take off that mask off her face and was wake in the middle of storm.


In November I was so happy to meet HE Garchen rinpoche see my lama and spend long time with him all this storm was in my head, I was so sensible and still a bit on that, that I was enable to follow the dharma properly but in the interview he cleared all of that in a second I was asking him for my relationship and what direction I should take, at first he say “you are with that person who was my ex” then he pause I have say to him I was not any-more sadly, in between tear and faith, then he told me don't worry that all the sexual misconduct is the result of that but as you have faith in the tree jewel you will find someone who is like Tara .
He was true on that day Garchen Rinpoche was in Scotland my ex was hanging around with someone in Depeche mode concert with her new boyfriend.


So after that I saw that I was destroy mentally, emotionally and everything until I apply the first advice of Garchen rinpoche love your ex like the first time, when I see that image of her the first time she was not that monster any more but someone totally different.
Second advice was pray the deity they will never leave you what was true, as Psychic Medium I have to say for couple years I have give up that, until that night I was totally crash dying of sadness, that night I have take refuge in the tree jewel and retake again my Nakgpa vows and call in 10 direction not just the buddhas and bodhisattvas but all my spiritual guides.
That night I have make a strange dream of someone coming at me, saying to me “don't worry we will help you” in that morning only one taught was in my head find oracles, as I use to be professional medium clairvoyant and tarot reader, so that was coming back at me, but to be sure I was not making the right choice I have see a colleague of mine who do reading for Christmas and she told me to retake the music, yes couple of weeks one advisor told me that will be my best asset and she told me also to keep carry on practice my clairvoyance.

A week after just before that experience yesterday with Karmapa, I have make that dream with Trinley Tulku Rinpoche, that mean a lot for me more that just a great kind lama is always have been there to advices me, in that dream he was helping to clear the black box, in the day I make reconnection with my heart sister who stay in France and first things she told me, that “you are better without her she a poison, I have told you that the first time have talk to her” sadly she was right.


Since that day, things start to change, slowly I don't have see the happy end yet but I'm working on everyday, I have promises to myself to never drop nothing from my personality for no one, today I have start to right new songs and using my medium gift to help others in everyday life, my hell is in way of finish because I have take the commitment to clear that, for my ex I just pray that she realise, she had create all of this, I can only drop a prayer for her since she have drop all dharma and radically change to get accept by her new boyfriend may her see what is the real truth and find the way to dharma.



And Garchen rinpoche was right now I meet everyday new person, full of kindness and beautiful in same time, I can see Tara in her easily and at that time I know that I cannot fail .

Karmapa Kyenno

Today I was working on my charity shop for British heart foundation and at one point I was doing a repetitive task, my mind was not focus at all until a flash light have been going strait to my head.


One word It was like Trinley Tulku Rinpoche was saying at me Karmapa Kyenno is important for you to be connect to your master.


Strangely I start to repeat the mantra and say it more in my head, strangely I have feel this super devotion and one question was in the light right now “Why Karmapa himself have give the name of victorious for the future temple in Scotland”


I have been also remind that dream I say to Dorzin Rinpoche when Karmapa himself have been appear in my dream saying to “ carry on “ when was really difficult to carry on the Drikung Kagyu group .


I feel full devotion for my both Lamas Dorzin Rinpoche, Garchen Rinpoche and I feel also full devotion for my roots Lama, Lama Teunsang and Karmapa I have been lucky to took refuge with great master like them and today I have been remembering that for lives I have been following Karmapa.


Today on my shop reciting all the day the mantra “Karmapa Kyenno” all the day for ones I have feel this great presence during my work the presence when I took refuge with him in France for Chenrezig empowerment.


Also today I have decide to follow my dream no matter what, I will apply to Uni even if some of my tutor want me to take time but in same told me I'm able, I will apply to HNC and I will do my music just watching a movie and one thing they say “ what if you know nothing is impossible” I have been living six years in scar city and negativity but will Les Brown say “yes it's easy to see faith when life is good but when life hit you in bad way big time that the real faith you see “



Karmapa Kyenno

Light of the guru in pure darkness

When you are in that time in life when everything get fuck up and hard to live you have two choices.
Play hard and you will get hard or turn yourself to the pure faith and devotion, that what I have choose, I have been looking my ex partner playing the Russian roulette of karma but the gun is full loaded.


As I'm psychic medium since my childhood I have always be closer of the spiritual for years my life was not in balance with that for many reasons but strangely in the middle of that hardship like boomerang the music and my gift just came back to me, I have always have been use my gift to help people. In France and UK I have help countless peoples with reading and also inside but for years I have been trying to fit with the system when finally I was a pure maverick.


So yeah since almost 5 month I was hunted by a song “Hero, the chorus is I need a hero” all this years he was closer to since day one, Tsem Tulku rinpoche say Lama Tsonkapa is enlightened being and help you to get it right, Garchen Rinpoche say about Lama Milarepa he will help not just for 7 lives but all the time until you reach enlightenment.


One day I was working in field with my father, my father run away to do some work and an asthma crisis hit me badly I was lying on field alone with one mantra in my head the mantra of Milarepa, I have pray him so hard, that I saw himself appear to me and he put his hand on my chest and my asthma was gone.


That story came back to me today and I have decide to forgive my ex but not her act and pray lama Milarepa because I know that he have been always with me, that because of him I have meet Garchen rinpoche and also because of him I have never make the wrong choice, I have always pray him to guide me.


Today I know loads of Lamas are worry for me, some I have write to them some other I have just pray but all have show me compassion and send me influences I rejoice on that and dedicate to all beings.



I'm not yet sort it but by the power of the lama I know I will soon get out of this hell flat and carry on my way.

What is and what's not Tantric

When we touch on that subject generally we have two ways the proper way and the way people think is .


In the west we see the sexuality like a how to get an orgasm in the east that a bit a different for those call Tantrica the goal is to touch the ultimate enlightenment .

Origins of Buddhist Tantra

As with many other aspects of Buddhism, myth and history don't always find their way to the same ball park.

Vajrayana Buddhists say tantric practices were expounded by the historical Buddha. A king approached the Buddha and explained that his responsibilities did not allow him to abandon his people and become a monk. Yet in his privileged position he was surrounded by temptations and pleasures. How could he realize enlightenment? The Buddha responded by teaching the king tantric practices that would transform pleasures into transcendent realization.

Historians speculate that tantra was developed by Mahayana teachers in India very early in the first millennia CE, possibly as a way to reach those who weren't responding to teachings from the sutras.

Wherever it came from, by the 7th century CE tantric Buddhism was fully systematized in northern India. This was significant to the development of Tibetan Buddhism. The first Buddhist teachers in Tibet, beginning in the 8th century with the arrival of Guru rinpoche were tantric teachers from northern India.

By contrast, Buddhism reached China about the year 1. Mahayana Buddhist sects that emerged in China, such as Pure Land and Zen, also incorporate tantric practices, but these are not nearly as elaborate as in Tibetan tantra.

What is not Tantric if someone tell you, you will have much pleasure we will do tantric, that clear this person don't know what is tantric is.


Of course there's many visualisation able to make your body react in some way or other but when we touch to the pure Tantric that totally different.




So Tantric in our era of everything “yes” but as Shamarpa “first remind the bodhisattvas practice and as say Garchen Rinpoche remind always Bodhicitta.


So what is tantric is part of visualisation and also work with your energies after there's many tantras so each is usually different.


So next time you see someone tell you that produce or that stuff is tantric, that maybe a good meditation to put you in the right place you want to be but that not Tantric.

Tantric at the end is to realise enlightenment not ultimate pleasure !!!

Mahamudra and Dzongchen

The Drukpa talk about Mahamudra and Dzongchen as the same thing just different word for the name enlightenment, when we go deeper in this two tradition we can see that they are pretty similar.


So what's really difference between this two tradition ?


Mahamudra come from Dorje Chang / Vajradara and Dzongchen come from Garab Dorje, the both tradition have there way to be transmit.


For the mahamudra the approach is different with the lineage with the emphasis on the view and also work with the contemplation and recollection and mantra recitation.


The Dzongchen is like a strait instruction to the nature of mind see as the great perfection, not renaming in doubt and remain in the state.


What is the great difference between the two as say the Drukpa there's no difference, the both tradition talking both about the same thing, also the way to transmit is more graduate into the mahamudra when the dzongchen will go strait to the point.



In our time the both tradition working hands together there's lot mahamudra practitioner who are also dzongchen practitioner, at the end we love put label to what is enlightenment but in all there's the same view of love, compassion and wisdom.

The hard choice

In our time it's really hard to follow the buddha path and all kind of spiritual path in general, why because soon we take the blue pill we start the world as is really and not like the Disney land we think the world is.


Be honest with you that blog was suppose to talk on karma but after reflection that have make more sense for me to talk about that.


So when we take the blue pill we think find the spiritual fix will help us to transform and do nothing but sadly take a spiritual path give pain a lot and lot of work on ourself and with others is constant work on body, speech and mind.


Nothing is easy in life and specially take a spiritual path and some of us quite in the way the think, yeah now I'm awake I start to know what is I can face Disney land, but one again is delusion it's like saying I was in coma and I like to come back to that.



That the reason in some way when we take a spiritual path we should take seriously and old habit will clearly not fit with the path and for that we should always think of the why we start this path and what was the motivation knowing that we start analyse what's wrong in our life and change destructive habit for positive one.

1 in 100

OK today this reflection come to me by walking in supermarket and look to everybody, so let's be honest are not each second living in survival mode, soon we are in school first things we hear it's forget your dream life is like this !


Later on pear around us always discourage us to be what we want to be at the end we finish like we are not happy sick and hateful for all kind of beings because we want keep the little we have been able to keep.


Even worst when we meet someone thinking differently and who him/her succeed in what he/she want to do first things we are suspicious looking for everything bad in that, we think that not “normal” to succeed .


When we look to the path in buddhism, whatever you do in life if we take all kind of examples like Marpa or Milarepa they have make the difference by the one in the one hundreds, in the 21^st century isn't just enough to be a practitioner you have to slam the norm and the life in some kind of way, we always say as buddhist yeah live your life how do you want live we are 24/7 in survival mode, we are told to do this or that living in pure shit brain drop by media of all kinds.


21^st bodhisattva have to be strong taking the stress but he have also to give both kindness and unconditional love be successful in his/her own well fare as well in the well fare of all beings a real bodhisattva will never be in survival mode and he will show his greatness to the world to inspire the world is the one in the one hundreds .



Yes or life is hard but, we accept to live the way we live because it's simple to live in dark isn't simple to live in light, we are powerful beyond measure that our light in frighting us not or darkness.

Love is wisdom itself !!!

"I'm not the one to say that kind of stuff like that because the many mistakes I made in past and even today made me everything except a saint but I know one things that the light of love and compassion is more strong that all the anger and violence, I know that the wisdom is beyond walls and actions because the real wisdom is love itself, who talk about love and trust should think about the real love the one without attachment as we are all Buddha by nature, love isn't what we think, love isn't punishment to do this or that love forgive, love as no value of time love keep forever, we made the big mistakes to confuse love and envy, we want be satisfy but forget love is always satisfy us anyway, who are looking for satisfaction in way want satisfy is ego not the love, love have many tastes but cannot be catch by hands, love is powerful beyond measure but not able to grab by anything, love have no body and form is love yeah love made no sins because there's no mistakes, love is real when we make it real love isn't a money we exchange for good behaviour who think that have never know what is real love, yeah love is faith even in deep hell burning love will be always there"

I'm no one to saying that kind of things but I know one thing that real love isn't what we think and is always on your side !!!!

Addiction to samsara

Lama Jigme Rinpoche have told recently if you want become buddha in one life you have to renounce everything and if enlightenment is not the principal goal in your life you can have a family and progress life after life if you practice the virtue .


Lama Milarepa say : you have to be disgust by the samsara to really want realise enlightenment and go for it.


Chatral Rinpoche say in the compassion in action we have to have the lifestyle for that and renounce of the samsara to carry on real dharma practice.


So we all looking for fun, relationship and money everyday east or west are the same in modern world we live in pure addiction of samsara, we live in comfort or struggle to get comfort and we thinking to only that.


Tsem Tulku Rinpoche say : the samsara promise a lot but give nothing


We think everything we have see enjoy will make us better but each time we get more angry when something don't go the way we expect and that build an heavy karma to us as we are not practising the way in pure renunciation that even more hard to put our mind in daily meditation, the Buddha say the mistakes is think you time, and time is running really fast and if we not practising or path everyday we losing our time in samsara at the end they're nothing more harmful than that.


Because in our quest of comfort we hurt beings around us, sometimes we make suffer relatives and don't feel any guilt to fix it, we hurt animals and many more and no we are not karma free, karma never stop and as you can see if we really meditate on cause and effect mistakes we make we get us by one way or another except if we purify and go forward in path even take refuge everyday is really powerful and we should remind our self for what was the reason we took refuge in the first place.


We wonder why we suffer so much but as say Shandideva all the suffering in the world come from wanted happiness for oneself and all happiness in the world come from wanting happiness from others, we should remind ourself everyday and when anger come cut it and act with kindness, when the pride and ego is here cut it and act with renunciation, when hatred come we should remind ourself all beings have buddha nature and we should love them not love some kind and reject others that pure duality and that not the path of the buddha.

The light of the guru in the darkness of samsara

In this time when only 6 % of buddhist practice really the pure way relate on past master like Lama Milarepa is become even more important than anything else .

We are everyday making choice or not making choice what's a choice on itself to float in pure samsara, distraction of all kind everywhere for those who have sense of ethic and pure faith and devotion in the way to liberate him/her self and others from the watching machine of the samsara is like fighting a MMA fighter with no skill to survive the fight.

In that we have to relate on our precious past present masters to help us to come true all our disturbance make us useless to help others, we live in pure ego trip society and we have to remind ourself this is not real in the way we think, this will disappear so fast in time of death.

We complain about our condition, we complain about politician, we complain about this or that we fall deep in depression because we acting like spoil kids.

Yes the precious lama is always here to remind us, all you got is because of you no one else, you are the master of your fate and there's even more important quest in life than just self sharing.

We take like granted the small pieces we got and forget that will also disappear in time of death as the guru yoga with the lama is the higher tantra ever we should remember Milarepa story and practice the path everyday by all the way we can.

Build up an ego don't take many time but leave it take even more time and let go of bad habit is work of everyday, when we wake up 10 / 20 years later and see “ha my lama is no more here I wasted my time doing this, doing that now what I can do “

I have personal story to share with you one of my friend is student of Trungpa rinpoche and during life he meet him long time and practice with him and also live is life when Trungpa pass away he start to go a bit to much in samsara and one day I was sitting with him in his home and he told me how it was so hard to get back to practice, it was a fight of everyday to do not spend that time busting around internet and see things not useful, yes is closer to 78 years old now and he give me that big advice “practice the dharma no matter what because if you waste your time, time we take over you and you will lost everything and be afraid to die”

Yes in our time when 6 % of buddhist practice really we need to think again and maybe push to next step remind the bodhisattvas vows we took, remind the promises we made to our lama and go for it, time is now, the past is past and we will never live that again, future is not here yet so why spend our time in non meaningful life and practice no virtues at all.

Kandro Rinpoche say if you look everyday how many virtue you really practice isn't much so for that we should be really diligent and don't forget our life is precious.

To finish this post I like to say in this time we look for proof of everything we should remind that movie Start war : Luke: I don't believe it. Yoda: That is why you fail.

Take a leap of faith and carry on look for what is real truth !!!

Suffering of Birth

In the Bardo state the wanderer

Is the Alaya. It stays nowhere,

Driven by one's own sorrow,

It enters a womb unknown.

Therein it feels like a fish

Caught into crevice of rock,

Sleeping in blood red and pus yellow,

In all discharges it must pillow.

Crammed in filth, it suffers pain,

From bad karma one is to gain,

Though remembering past lives,

It cannot count four or five.

Now scorched by heat,

Now cold it does meet.

For nine months it remains,

In the womb with all pains,

From womb by pliers as if pulled out,

Head is squeezed but safety is nought,

Like being thrown into a bramble,

When it bears all of a-tremble,

Its body on mother's lap with sorrow,

It feels gripped by a hawk like a sparrow.

When his body blood and dirt is cleansed,

Like flayed alive its pains increased,

When umbilical cord is being cut,

It feels as if the spine does jut,

When wrapped in the cradle,

It feels bound by a girdle.

He who realizes not the truth of non-born

Never can escape from birth to be grown.

Milarepa